Dear Divine Lover
abiding within me,
Where did You go?
Where are You hiding?
Why haven’t You answered my texts?
I need to know where You are
because without You
I've come to a full stop.
It’s as if I have trudged
a long way
and suddenly,
I find myself standing
stock still
in the middle of the road,
unable to put one foot
in front of the other.
Together, You and I
don’t do full stop.
We do full charge.
Are You on summer vacation?
Are You tired of
my dependence on you?
Are You tired of
always having
to walk me though
every last thing I do?
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My Dear Claire,
You are at full stop
because that is
where you need to be.
I am present to you now,
as I always am.
Right now I am present
in your brain fog,
in your passiveness,
in your lethargy.
I know.
You are used
to recognizing Me
in the excitement you feel
when we generate
an idea,
or a project together.
Claire, My dear,
there is no idea or project
right now…
other than the
project of
Peace,
Quiet,
Prayer,
Observation,
Beauty,
Sleep, and
Attentiveness.
In your compulsion
To do,
To be,
To create,
To engage,
you have lost touch –
not only with Me,
but with yourself.
By this stage of your life,
you must be able
to see the usual,
telltale signs of burnout…
Resentments,
Poor decision-making,
Lack of enthusiasm
for things that usually
bring you joy.
You’ve crossed the line, My dear.
Your actions are hollow
because you have lost touch
with My Life Force
within you.
I know you are also wondering…
as you age…
if you will ever feel
energy and purpose again?
You will.
You will.
Just not until
you balance the scales of
Life-In-God again.
Not until your own spirit
is nurtured and cared for
will you once again
be prepared
to hear My voice
calling you back
to new engagement
with the world.
Remember -
even I rested on the 7th day!
Did you hear that bird just now?
Feel that breeze?
Feel My sun on your face?
Have you marveled at the giant dahlias
showing off in your garden?
You wonder where I’ve gone?
It’s summertime.
I’m all around you,
inviting you to
Stop,
Breathe,
See,
Sleep,
Smell,
Love,
Re-create yourself.
I’m still here..
the Divine Source
you took into your heart in childhood,
questioned and ignored in youth,
studied and intellectualized in adulthood,
welcomed into your marriage and family,
grew with in your faith,
co-created with in your ministry,
and am now
trying to be your best friend
as you age.
Like any best friend,
I understand your past,
and believe in your future.
We will co-create
new thoughts and projects again
after you’ve taken
some time
for self-renewal.